沿途的风景，美而短暂。

I would like to post something meaningful that I'd read recently: Why human become so fearful as you grow? Do you actually realize, how brave is the baby when coming into this world. Bringing nothing into this world. Not knowing what will happen to their life. But they are fearless. They just take whatever it comes. That's why Robin Sharma said, "Who you are in this moment is not who you truly are, rather, it's someone you've become as a result of being in this world." Can you imagine how much the world has changed you? How much the world has changed me? From a fearless person, to a person who is fearful. I'm fear of loss (Though when I came to this world, I bring NOTHING but my little body). I'm fear of being stupid... I'm fear of being left behind... I'm fear of being alone... I'm fear of hurting people... and I'm fear of being hurted... I'm JUST fearful~~~ Every year I live, I am more convinced that the waste of life lies in the ...

This award was unexpected, for I take myself as still being a freshie... and there is so much more to learn. I have a sudden thought that it is time to do a self-reflection for year 2010, and God, please grant me the peace, wisdom and love to keep improving for the Rabbit year.

薰衣草--等待爱情的奇迹 　 一个年少时的承诺，在历经了时空的相隔、人事的变迁后， 彼此间那份纯粹的深情，依然在心中刻划出无人能替代的地位；即使面对上天的捉弄、 命运的残酷，让人再次感受到真爱的力量与奇迹，还有心底那份对爱情的悸动。 LEO：为了妳，我一定会回来的。 LEO：我的心只能回应给我最珍爱的人。 LEO：不管在哪哩，我们的心永远在一起。 LEO：妳在我心里面已经盖了一个家，然后现在妳又走出去，那我一个人应该怎么办？ LEO：因为在我生命里面只剩下妳，妳是我唯一的依靠，就算被讨厌，我也不要失去妳。 LEO：妳不爱我，才是对我最大的伤害。 LEO：遇见妳，即使在最平凡的地方，我也是幸福的。 LEO：我的心很久以前已经给了妳，不管妳在哪里，我都会在妳身边。 LEO：我不想看着妳走，妳愈走愈远，我的心就会愈痛；我也不想妳看着我走，因为我知道妳的心也会很痛。 LEO：不要担心妳明天就要死了，不要担心妳会变得怎样，也不要担心妳会变成我的负担，只要知道我们是相爱的。 LEO：我们是同株相连的薰衣草，谁离开了谁也都活不下去。 LEO：不要担心我们只剩一天能相爱，就算只剩一天，我也要用尽一辈子的心来爱妳；我不在乎妳只剩下一秒钟，就算只剩一秒钟，我们也要在一起。 LEO：我不可以忍受办点失去妳的念头，我甚至不敢去想，如果没有妳，只剩下我一个会怎样。 LEO：每当风起的时候，薰衣草的味道总会飘近我的身边，让我知道，妳没有离开过我。 ～只要用力呼吸，就能看到奇迹～

Before leaving Malaysia, I would like to pen down my summary for year 2010. First of all, thank God for giving me the strength and courage to make it through the year, and to learn so much about life in this one year. To all my friends, bosses, colleagues, family members, classmates and students: I would like to thank you all for what you have done for me in this one year, and for never giving up on me when I gave up on myself. This is not an easy year for me. Many times, many of you would have been seeing me shedding tears in silence… Without all of you, I know that I will never stand up again. Will always carry my promise to be a good lecturer, and to give as much as I can to all the people in my life today. WORK AND CAREER: This is a great year for my career, despite of my high lecturing hours… it went up to as high as 27 hours per week! In just one and a half years’ time, I have accumulated enough experiences in the Diploma school and am slowly moving over to the Degree school. By ...

今年，我的圣诞节是不一样的。 因为。。。 我理想的圣诞节，是与心爱的人一起度过。 希望将来有这样的机会。

Read this meaningful blog post, and it is worth sharing! 這純粹是一個愛情故事，不是傳説中被敬奉得仿佛應該成爲現代女性聖典的一碗心靈雞湯。女主角走啊走的，繞了半個地球，走囘終點等於走囘從前，繼續模糊地疼惜自己，繼續忐忑地全身投入愛一個人—— 不過換了一個男人，一次激情。有什麽被改變了嗎，換一個人，從年輕時誤以爲有夢想的男人換成成長后真正已經實現夢想的男人，或曰，有錢有貌有智慧有歷練的男人。 我們都需要像Ketut巫師那樣的一個人吧，一個你始終搞不清楚他到底是能預知天命的高人還是純粹懂得洞悉人心的智者，總之，一個能讓你全心相信的人，將一些你本來就知道的人生道理大大力注入你心，不持久無所謂，當下的當頭棒喝也許就改變了下一刻的決定，自此改變了你的一生。家庭主婦義大利媽媽說你需要一個男人，她嗤之以鼻；巫師助手說你來尋找的不過是男人，她苦惱搖頭嘆氣怎麽大家誤會了她崇高的理想呢；Ketut說這是你需要的男人，她立馬轉身飛奔就去了。這三個人當中的差別是什麽，一樣的指引，來自不能讓她信服的沒有華貴地位的看似庸俗麻木的女人，和來自一個被奉為與神同等的男人，差別在人們心中那把秤。 故事怎樣始終無所謂，當中一些關鍵詞卻是很能引起共鳴的。 1. [God, I'm in serious trouble, I don't know what to do.]—— 這個確實是最嚴重的問題而偏偏正好是大部分人面對的問題啊啊，只不過，我們都善於僞裝欺騙自己，讓一堆有的沒的事情圍繞自己忙了自己，然後託辭說我沒時間思考這些那些。然後日子庸庸碌碌過去，至終我們唯一的欣慰就是數算擁有的財富，孩子的成績，等等之類的事了吧。 2. [The complete and merciless devaluation of self.]—— 愛情裏盲目的人們總會不停地自我貶值，從最初被追求的高度自信，漸漸被磨蝕得失去自信，失去自我，逐漸卑微到一個自己無法察覺在別人眼中卻是一目了然的地步。總有那麽一瞬間你想過，怎樣都無所謂，只要你依然愛我就是。像離婚后的短暫戀情中的小男友說的，我們能不能接受我們就是這樣個性不合、天天吵架、天天賭氣但就是不能分開的情侶，只要確認了這一點，那我們可以繼續miserable地生活下去，但因不必分開而得到慰藉。自不快樂中汲取...

I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord, be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. Psalm 27:13~14