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My Feelings @ 1.56 a.m.

No more excitement...
no more the feeling of being emphasized and prioritized...
no more care, love and attention which I am hunger of...
No more the feelings which were there when we were so in love with each other before,
No more the feelings of being needed in each other's lives,
Nothing at all...
I could sense the big change in our relationship...but the other party is not able to sense it and does not even think that there should be a problem...
When this happens, but the other party keeps denying the other when she tries to raise up the problem, it really hurts a lot...
2 years staying together...spending all our time together...
I thought I deserve the most basic understanding from him despite me not telling out what is in my mind, but I just feel that myself do not belong to this relationship at all more and more now.
What is the reason of me being so stubborn wanting to go on this way despite that I am unhappy and disappointed with the reactions from the other party all the time?
Does he still really need me in his life as much as what he claimed when we just started our relationship? He is not even able to provide me the slightest console and assurance for my feelings now.
The more the feelings I pour into a relationship, the more the expectation for the other party to understand and appreciate me, and thus, believing that it is worth it to tolerate a person you love no matter at what expense. But why is this relationship so tiring and hurting?
Why am I still dropping tears for this relationship everyday and I feel as if there is no one at all whom I can go to now for the slightest console? No one at all... I am really stressed, really depressed...really down...for this relationship.
I just wish there is someone out there who can console me by telling me now that:
"PE, everything is gonna be alright. I will always stand by you, support you, love you and pamper you no matter what happens..."

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